Home Again, Jiggety Jig

Came home, changed out to a new omnipod (I keep wanting to say ipod heh heh heh), cried for awhile.

Tested at 35. Ate some graham crackers and cried some more.

I hate being broken.

I hate it more than anything in the whole world. I hate being dead already, just limping along with the help of synthetic insulin.

I hate being broken.

Crying some more.

Tomorrow will be better.

That's all living with chronic illness is for me, really: that stubborn conviction that tomorrow will be better.

Getting the sweats and the shakes at the sugar comes back up.

Fucked up cyborg, I am.

Limping along.

Tomorrow will be better.

Sugar Death

You know, just seeing how much insulin I have to take just to stay under 300 because the pump's fucked and basal's not working, I have to say that I'm reducing my, "I could live for at least 3 days without insulin after the apocalypse!" to "I'd be lucky to make it 24 fucking hours."

Glad I took them seriously about those emergency supplies, or I would have had to go home a hell of a lot earlier.

Depressing, to be dying all the time.

Pod Failure

Had my first pod failure this morning when I went to switch out my omnipod. I'd read about this in the omnipod forums - apparently 1 in 7 actually fail out of the box. The good news is that this is supposed to mostly happen immediately, as soon as you put it on. I kept getting communication error messages, so I switched out the pod and successfully activated a new one.

Well, it looks like they "usually" only fail out of the box, because this second one I've had one has kept me at a steady 300 all fucking day long. I have no idea what's going on with it. Checked the cannula, which is in place. It still clicks when it delivers a bolus, the proper basal program is on, it just... wants to keep me at 300.

As recommended, I kept my pens on hand for just such emergencies (I would have had the extra pod, too, but this *was* my backup pod, and I forgot to replace the backup this morning, figuring that the chances of having 2 bad pods weren't high ha haah 1 in 7, do the math).

I suppose it's possible this is also a leveling issue, but I doubt it. I switched out sites and pods, so I'm thinking there's some kind of blockage or bad cannula or something.

I took a 6 unit correction hit with my pens, which should help. I'll just need to manually finagle it until I get home and change out the pod.

Fucking annoying. Seriously, 1 in 7? Don't they have some rigorous quality check for these things?