Remind me again why we all get into relationships again and again and again when all of them just end up hurting you and somebody you love again and again and again?
Isn't the definition of insanity doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result?
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
I Am So Tired
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I've been crying for three days straight, over my bf. It's insane. I keep looking at myself, incredulously, saying things like, "Didn't you say you'd never act this way again?"
I think I'm ready to stop feeling guilty about 'letting' myself fall in love again, and 'letting' myself need someone else again. Okay, I lied.
I keep bursting into tears at random moments, and he and I haven't even broken up yet. After 18 years of this relationship thing (and a marriage), I have no idea what I'm doing. There is no way to keep yourself out of it (once you've entered into one). In for a penny, in for a pound.
Because falling in love is something you cannot control. And because everyone has perfectly natural desire for love and affection and companionship and happiness. And we hope relationships can give us that. Well, there's also the lust.
And you can't beat yourself up over taking a risk on someone.
It's not the same thing over and over again. It's with a different person, and a different 'you' as time has passed and change has happened, meaning that there is hope. And there is, always, I promise.
I hope you and Jen are both ok.
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